"You, LORD, give perfect peace to those who keep the purpose firm and place their trust in me."
For two years, now, I've been fighting pretty hard to get over these complexes with my eating. Things started out funky, with full-fledged anorexic behaviors. They shifted to the worst period: violent phases of binge-restrict anorexia with distructive purging behavior. With the support of friends and God, I was able to pass through that period relatively unscathed. However, I've been stuck in a rut since then without any self control as I constantly struggle with an unending desire to lose weight coupled with an inability to refuse any food. My behavior seems characterized by mild binge-restrict.
I honestly want to lose weight, but more than that, I'd like to be normal with my eating habits. I want to reach for fruits and veggies and have the ability to combat the cravings I'm facing. I truly believe that my weight will level out if I can truly turn my eating habits around.
The task is daunting, but what are summers for? They are times free of stress and continuous obligations that would leave a struggling young lady reeling.
So buckle up. I'm committing to this thing, and you have to go along with me.
